The Capezio shoes are back! I just danced around my room like a crazy lady to 70's disco. "Take your passion and make it happen!"

I felt GREAT! I'm terribly out of shape and dripping sweat but it felt amazing to get the blood pumping. Thank you Village People!

Shower time. Then Starbucks. Then Soho for work. Hope my energy stays up for the girls.

Just finished a late breakfast of 2 eggs with avocado slices and blueberries. I chugged down my liquid vitamins, popped a resveratrol and drank a full glass of water. I plan to take a little jog down by the Hudson in a bit. My dance sneakers are still staring at me.

Music always motivates me. I just put on "American Boy" by Estelle. Gotta little bounce going. I think I will make a 20 minute dance mix and start my dance training right here in my apartment.

I have to organize my room and clear a dance space. Stevie Wonder's "Positivity" will help with the process.

When I see the morning
And the sun is smiling down upon you
Just joy in the blessing
That still the ground is not above you
And for the people
That you can truly say do love you, do feel
Positivity, 'cause that's what life's meant to be

Positivity, and that's the energy the world needs

I feel healthier than I have in years. The fuel I have been giving my body is miraculously beneficial. It is amazing what all natural foods can do for your mind. I feel so good. Now that I feel complete and caught up in my nutritional needs, I must incorporate my goal of at least 20 minutes of exercise/day.

P.S. Blueberries and Sundrops make me delightfully happy.

Two days left of my 27th year. I feel .... old ... but also as if life hasn't even started in some ways. I realized tonight that I have been afraid to dance all my life. Afraid of judgement. Afraid of negativity.

When I was a young girl, my neighbor (and at the time... idol) was a beautiful dancer and I looked up to her in so many ways. When I was only 10, she told me I wasn't good at dance and should only stick to singing. Heartbroken and foolishly discouraged, I did what she said.

It is only now that I realize I have true potential as a dancer if I can only conquer my fear. I have had to dance/move in most of the shows I have done, but I have never been fully comfortable. Never been free. I know it's a matter of practice and that I must start taking lessons again, but this creature fear just stares blankly out of the full length mirror when I try. I truly believe that all I have ever wanted is to be in full control of my body on stage. To express my soul through not only my acting and voice, but also my body.

It is time for me to make a decision. This is a challenge I have waited too long to face. The insecure young girl in morning ballet classes at the Hartt Conservatory is now just a shadow. My capezio dance sneakers have been staring at me for much too long. Tomorrow, I will put them to use again. Right now, I release the past and begin my new life as a dancer.